2012.
You’ve never heard a lion roar like this before.
Love for Abba. Daddy God.
Every time I feel the urge to love so badly that I can’t contain it, I’m reminded that a love that strong is only meant for my Beloved.
Leaving home…
For a while now, I’ve been going to both my home church & a ministry God connected my heart with at school. KVIC(ministry at school) has shown me the difference of experiencing God & encountering God. Honestly, I was stuck in the traditions of religion before this ministry, now I am a laiddown lover for Christ. Meaning I lay down all of my desires & pick up all of His. Don’t get me wrong(I’m ever grateful for the foundation my home church has given me), but I feel soo out of place at service. I keep trying to be open minded but I really feel like my growth is being stagnated. For example, the congregation is so much depended on what the pastor says, it’s like they don’t get to know God for themselves. Just as today, he says God has not called anyone to be prophets in today’s times. That the Bible is prophetic, not people & God only calls preachers not prophets.(the whole church clapped their amens) This irks me sooo much for the simple fact I know that hearing God’s voice is vital in a time such as this. 1 Corinthians 14:39 clearly states “Therefore, my brothers, be eager to prophesy, and do not forbid speaking in tongues.” I am a firm believer that God is calling us to a Joel 2 assembly. Joel 2:28-29 states
“28 And afterward,
I will pour out my Spirit on all people.
Your sons and daughters will prophesy,
your old men will dream dreams,
your young men will see visions.
29 Even on my servants, both men and women,
I will pour out my Spirit in those days.
Not to mention, the pastor says anyone who leaves “his” church will not be blessed (this makes me uncomfortable). I am well aware that no congregration is perfect, but I do believe God places us in specific places for specific seasons in our lives. And, the season I am now in, I need MORE when I go to service. So I’m praying on the decision but I think it’s time that I leave home.
It scares me…
if I do something outside the will of God & I feel His spirit becoming distant from me. I immediately begin to pray Psalm 51:11
